Just keep moving

I went on a walk today. In fact, it was the first walk of 2015! As I was walking with the little guy in the stroller, I started thinking... My first thought was "why is walking to a specific place so much longer than a 5min drive to the same place."  Then, I started thinking the walk was too long, but I was already half way there. Do I turn around? Do I keep walking? Will this baby last all the way? 

I stopped a few times arguing with myself on if I should turn around or keep going. Just keep going. "You decided to do this, so do it." I told myself. 

My steps dragged as I kept contemplating if this was a good idea. The walk was only 45 minutes long, but with a baby that could quickly turn into a cry fest, and you'd have to run home. I didn't want to run home. "I'm out of shape….Kinda. I can't run home." I thought to myself. 

"Just keep going. You're almost there, and you sound pathetic." I laughed at myself. 

Isn't that how life goes? You start something you're really into. You even start working towards it, but once you start really thinking about your decision, you start doubting. Talking yourself out of it. Like you're going to fail before you start. How would you know, though? That you'll fail? Even if you do fail, what's stopping you from trying again. Those thoughts were really annoying, but you get a glimpse of what happens in my mind. I analyze and analyze and then argue with myself. My mind is always going, processing and analyzing. Pros, and cons. What to do in worst case scenario. 

 I think too much, but sometimes I just need to shut it off and keep going. Stay on track. Remember the end goal. Yes, I just need to remember the end goal. That's my one goal of 2015. Whatever happens just keep going.